Ok, Ok!!!

Geez–I’ve been referred to as Miz Thang…and impressed upon to write an update.  OK! Ok!!!  LOL

What is up with me.  Hmm…It’s 07/07/07.  I hope today is lucky for someone.

I have been laying low the last few days.  I am in that “psycho pocket” of days before my period so trying not to hurt anyone’s feelings or get mine hurt too badly.  Basically just been concentrating on getting through the days because I am definitely in a slump, probably because of “the hormonees”.  The Prozac I started taking, “that no work” for “the hormonees” (I’m pulling an Aunt Voola there…)

We are so unbelievably broke, which is the norm these days.  Hubby worked a crapload of overtime over the last pay period.  We get our paystub on Thursday and find that he was paid for a straight 80 — that’s 2 40 hour weeks — so he is missing 22 hours of overtime, 5 days of travel expense pay, and a 10% wage differential for working night shift.  It adds up to about $1450 of much needed fundage.  We will probably not get it until the next paycheck.  This is bad — he did that overtime for a reason — we have bills that need paid and we are supposed to be leaving for Tennessee on Thursday for 6 days; and also leaving the kids with my mom and sister for a few days after that — need to leave some money for them too.

Hubby’s boss is going to bat for him and trying to get them to cut an off cycle check…this is very rare and I think it’s probably not going to happen.  The boss says he would be willing to give us the money and then we could pay him back when we do get the money from the company.  I am not all that comfortable with that.  My sister said not to do that, to let her give us the money, but I don’t think she realizes its $1400.  LOL.  We may just borrow the money for traveling from her.  The bills are just going to have to wait.  All we have money for right now is our house payment and food and gas.  Nice, huh?  We just are behind and I wanted to catch up before things got bad.  Oh well.  This is going to be the story of our life until Lola is in school and I can work again, full time.  I love this country and how hard it is for a family to make it on one income.  Capitalist Prick Bastards.  My husband actually makes a respectable wage, it’s just so damned expensive to LIVE.  We could make it just fine, but we don’t want to live so damned frugal that the kids miss out on stuff.  If we had more discipline I’m sure we wouldn’t be having these problems.  We were doing ok before I got all down after Lola was born.  Hubby has passed on a lot of overtime over the last couple of years because I just needed him to come home and relieve me from the kids, etc. because I was feeling so horrible. 

I have also overspent many, many times out of depression or on a manic spree.  He has been so patient with me.  His argument is what I consider a “manic spending spree” is the normal lady’s “just picked up a few things at the store”.  I know that I feel like if I spend $75 on myself or the kids that wasn’t planned I beat myself up about it.  MY thing is that we don’t HAVE $75 extra to spend, I shouldn’t have spent it on stuff for me…I have enough clothes, I have shoes, there is no reason for me to buy anything new.  The kids often have enough too…Lola is constantly growing so I do need things for her but I overspend when I do go and get her things.  I can go to Barnes & Noble with the kids and spend $60 easily.  I know, go to the library…right?  I do…sometimes we collect a book series, etc., and I buy them…oh well, I suck…I already know.

The weather has been beautiful, but I haven’t been going out much.  Which is really sad because Lola should be outside more.  I’m just low energy and chasing her wears me out.  She always wants to go on Princess’s trampoline (aka “the bing-a-bing”) and it is horrible for my back and joints.  I do go out there some, but not as much as SHE wants to!

Other than that, I am really looking forward to going to Tennessee and being with my family for a few days.  All the Harry Potter fans in the family will be trekking down to Nashville (4 hour drive) to see the new movie in the IMAX 3D.  I am geeked about that.  We are going to go out on the jetskis, and do a few other things like that.  I am really looking forward to it.  My sister, niece and I will work on plans for the niece’s wedding shower and wedding.  I’m the maid of honor so I have a lot of things I need to be doing for this.

Then, we will be coming home on Tuesday the 17th and will be child free (!!!) until the following weekend — the weekend that Deathly Hallows comes out.  I am kind of hoping that Hubby will drive down to meet my sister in Cincinnati and get the kids on his own so I can read my book in peace.  Wouldn’t that be nice?  🙂  But I am also going to enjoy having Hubby to myself for what, 4 or 5 whole days?  We haven’t had more than 6 or so hours alone in YEARS!!!  😛  Surprisingly, although I am looking forward to making love a WHOLE bunch, the things I’m really looking forward to are playing cards, going out wherever we want to go, talking about whatever we want, watching the TV and whatever we want on it, going on walks, candlelit dinners, etc.  But the playing cards I’m really geeked about.  Can’t do that with a little toddler crawling all over you and the table…and once she goes to bed we’re too tired to play cards.  So it will be nice.  I love games.

Anyway…the highlight of the whole 4 or 5 days alone will be him going with me to Walmart in the middle of the night to get Deathly Hallows.  I won’t have to go alone because we can’t leave the kids unsupervised — we can go together and not worry!!  I’m sure this is exactly what he is looking forward to the most (yeah, right).

Deathly Hallows looms hugely in my conscious mind and I really don’t have a lot of other subjects that I want to think about.  I have been waiting a long time for this book and can’t seem to concentrate on anything.  I’m rereading the books AGAIN — I’m almost finished with Goblet of Fire…I want to be able to pick up DH and seamlessly pick up the thread of the story…I am going to really savor this.  I’m going to stock up on my favorite snacks, make a cozy little nest on my bed and only get up to go to the bathroom or take a shower!!!  YAY no kids to distract me — ah the heaven!!!

So that is all that is going on.  Nothing major…I’m sure you’re bored to death.  But YOU asked for it — you know who you are.


Beautiful Artwork

Current mood: impressed

You all know I’m a huge Harry Potter fan.  I have found an artist who does artwork based on Harry Potter and she is unbelievably talented.  Her medium is graphite and prismacolor colored pencils, along with a bit of india ink.

Her website is www.mudblood428.com, and this is one of my favorite pictures, but it makes me cry, because I just finished Half-Blood Prince again.

Harry, Come On...

You should go check her stuff out.  It’s really good, if you’re into Harry Potter.

Some old entries you might like

I am transferring older journal entries over to here from Diaryland.  I came across a few I wrote back in the Spring of 2004 that I thought people might enjoy.  Some of them are kind of sad, some of them are funny, and some of them I think are a good insight to me as a person.  So here they are.

2/27/04 – A letter to Hobbes

3/24/04 – Steamy Dreams!

3/25/04 – Are You Bona Fide? (This one is funny, at least to me)

3/29/04 – Vanity or Truth

I may link some other ones at a later date.

The Day Begins

Current mood: cheerful

OK, I have a long day ahead of me.  I woke up with my head made up that I was going to get the following things done:

1) Clean House
2) Laundry
3) Bills

Considering the state everything is in, it will probably take me from now until bedtime, especially if I procrastinate.  However, I always find if I publish here what I have to do, I’m more motivated to do it, because then if I don’t I feel embarrassed!  LOL.

So here is my checklist for cleaning.  I wil come and update every so often and we’ll see how I do today.  If I don’t finish today, I will finish tomorrow.

1)  Dress to shoes (mom & baby)
2)  Separate laundry, start a load.
3)  Clean my bedroom
4)  Clean kitchen
5)  Load of Laundry
6)  Clean LR/DR
7)  Sweep & Mop main floor
8)  Load of Laundry
9)  Clean Upstairs Hall
10)  Clean Bathroom
11)  Sweep & Mop Upstairs
12)  Load of Laundry
13)  Work on Finances
14)  Make Updated Master To-Do List
15)  Make Menu for rest of April and for May.

My reason for doing these things today and tomorrow is that I want to get back up on my FlyLady schedule and get back on track with the money situation.  I’ve been a bit indulgent with myself, Hubby and the kids.  We have to get back on the program ASAP to keep going forward with our financial plans, we gotta get our kid’s college savings pumped up a bit more. LOL.

My hubby started working at the new location today.  Yesterday, he and I went to see 300 at the IMAX in Lansing with his friends Jack, Tim, and Dennis and Jack’s and Tim’s sons.  So I had 7 handsome dates to the movies! LOL.  There was much amusement about how much more into it than they were.  But I believe our reasons are much differed as to WHY we enjoy it.  Although I like it just as much as they do for the storyline and the fight scenes, but I have the added pleasure of ogling the men.

After we got home yesterday afternoon, we spent the rest of the evening outside with the girls.  We grilled out, just sat and watched Lola play, and then after the kids went to bed, we sat out there listening to music and holding hands, while watching the remnants of the Lyrids meteor shower.  We finally went in some time after 11:00 p.m.  We had a nice talk about our relationship and our 8 years together.  It is great to know that I am still loved, warts and all.  And I think we all know here how much I love that man.

Well, because I love him, I am determined to get back on the “good spouse” track.  Off to clean.


Currently listening :
God Shuffled His Feet
By Crash Test Dummies
Release date: By 26 October, 1993

Current mood: cheerful

Yes, it is 7:30 and I’m up.  I’ve been up since 7:00 a.m. thanks to Hubby and Lola.

It’s ok, though.  I’m in an EXCELLENT mood today.  It might have to do with the EXCELLENT night I had last night!

Well, I haven’t blogged on here much the last couple of weeks so I haven’t mentioned this, because I kind of hoped it wouldn’t go through.  Hubby is being transferred at work, up to another location near Flint.  It’s called a “forced transfer”.  He has had a couple of close calls where he was going to be transferred to Jackson and Lansing in the past, and at the last minute, he had a reprieve.  But although his boss and his boss’s boss have been working diligently to keep him here, unless something happens today (Saturday) it is doubtful it will happen before he has to report to the new place on Monday.

We have gotten over it, and he and I, as we always do, have found the positives in the situation.  He’ll be significantly up higher in the seniority list at this place, so he should probably get a more desirable schedule, and there are a couple other perks as well.  However, if I know his boss, Hubby may end up back at the home garage in just a couple of weeks.  Hubby and the other guy who got transferred, they are 2 of only 3 guys in the whole area here who know how to do fiber-optic cable repair and this whole area is one of the first in Michigan to roll out the fiber optic service.  Plus, the two of them are 2 of the 3 people who do DSL in this area too.  So now they’re down to 1 person to do fiber (and he’s never done it alone, and only once with Hubby), and 1 person to do DSL (and they were overloaded with orders for 3 people).  I have a feeling they’ll be bringing them back.  The 3rd level boss (the boss’s boss’s boss) is also campaigning to get them back too.  The reason they’re the ones being transferred is because they are the lowest on the seniority list at their current location.

Then, too, the boss, and the 3rd level boss have been helping Hubby try to achieve the ultimate transfer, to Tennessee.  And it’s been going a bit faster lately so it could be that he will only have to go to this location for a little while anyway with that going on too.

But anyway, I was just laying the background as to what we were doing last night.  The guys from work had a goodbye party for Hubby and the other guy.  We went to Cleary’s which is a local irish pub.  It was sweet, Hubby wanted me to come, and no one else’s wife was there, and it didn’t appear that they were asked to come.  So for much of the night, I was the only woman at the table.  It was quite amusing.  For a while this other woman they work with, Carrie, was there and I really like her.  We have gotten to know each other better over the last few years and there’s a lot of mutual respect there.  She’s a very nice person.  This is the first time she’s gone to a company after-work party, and it was definitely because she really thinks Hubby is awesome.  When she left, she hugged me, and said, “Take care of him, now, he’s one of the best guys I know.”

What was really nice about the night is that the guys who showed up were mainly Hubby’s buddies, and we get along great.  Hubby’s dad came for a while too and was as charming as he could be.  Hubby’s boss was there too.  I had a ball talking to Dennis, who is one of the smartest, sweetest people I have met in Michigan.  We talked about Hubby, and my family, and religion, and kids, and you name it, we discussed it.  Jack, who has been retired from the company for about 2 years, came up also.  After discussions, it has been decided that Jack, Dennis, Bat and I are driving up to Lansing to see 300 on IMAX on Sunday.  It’s going to rock!  I may have to sit separately from them so I don’t offend them with my open lusting.

Hm…Ron, another guy that Hubby works with, was there and I’m telling you, he’s so much more outgoing since his divorce.  I didn’t realize that he was so limited in social situations before.  We’re supposed to go do karaoke with him and his girlfriend in the next couple of weekends.  He apparently likes to sing karaoke. How many guys have I met that do?  Not many!

Now, a couple of the guys who came are old-timers at the company.  30-35 years in, they have been there as long as the father-in-law, and they have seen Hubby and BIL grow up.  The last time I saw them at a party, we got into it (me and the two guys) about their philosophies on what makes Hubby (and BIL to some extent) tick.  Plus there was some veiled propositioning that took place.  I got a little aggravated with them at the time.  Last night, they were there and I got to start talking to the one guy, Phil, before he had consumed a lot of alcohol and he is absolutely adorable.  We had a really deep conversation about alcoholism and his life experiences.  He’s such a nice person and I realize how much he likes Hubby.

The other guy, Jeff, was pretty nice too. 

HOWEVER…after mostly everyone left, it was just me, Hubby, Jack, Dennis, Phil, Jeff and Ron.  Jack and Dennis decided to leave so Hubby walked out to the parking lot with him so Jack could give him some soda to put in the pop machine at work.  They were out there A LONG LONG TIME…those two could put me and SIL to shame with the talking and talking and talking.  Anyway he left me alone with Ron, Jeff and Phil and Oh. My. God.  I thought I was going to die with all the commentary I was getting from them.  From the mild, “Guys, too bad you’re sitting over there, ’cause [CG] smells SOOOO GOOD!” from Ron, to “Hey, they rent rooms upstairs, [Hubby] could be out there for another 20 minutes…so that’s 10 minutes for me, 5 minutes for Ron and 5 minutes for Jeff…”

Can you believe that?  There was a lot more but here’s what I did.  I just sat there, and listened for a while without getting mad, and then…BOOM!  I laid the smack down…

Phil had said before that he was at the end of his career and just didn’t seem to learn the new technology very well, but that Hubby was the future of the company because he could do anything they roll out.  He said, “You can’t teach an old dog new tricks…You could teach me to jump through a hoop, but that hoop would have to be only 2 feet off the ground.  But [Hubby] would be jumping through the hoop 8 feet off the ground.”  After he started hitting on me, I simply said, “Now, Phil, why would I go with someone who could only jump through a hoop 2 feet off the ground, when I have a man who can jump through the 8 foot hoop?”

And Jeff had said, when Phil was saying that stuff about him getting 10 minutes and the other guys getting 5…he said, “You’re flattering me, I don’t even need 5 minutes…I only need 1!!” and so I said to him, “I don’t even need to say anything about that…The answer was in the question…why would I go with someone who admittedly can only last 1 minute?”

Ron was falling out of his chair, and the two of them just sat there looking like they’d been hit with a 2×4.  I don’t think they’re used to being put in their place by a woman.  And I don’t think they were expecting it from Hubby’s woman…I think the reason they even go there with me is because they think Hubby won’t step up and say anything.  But he doesn’t have to, I can take care of myself.

When Hubby finally came back in, Jeff said, “Now [Hubby], [CG] hasn’t been very nice to us while you were gone!  She put us in our place!!!” and Phil said, “[Hubby], I think I’ve met my match here.  I think we’re going home with our tails between our legs.”  and Hubby just said, “If you guys had asked me, I could have warned you that you don’t want to get into a battle of wits with *my* wife…she’ll take you to the cleaners and you won’t even realize what happened until you get home later.  Even *I* know better than to start something like that with her!”  It was really funny.  We left there all in high spirits and I think I earned a little respect for me AND for my hubby from these guys. 

Hubby was so happy after we left there last night, I’m so glad those guys came to his party and that all his really good buddies from work were there.  It was nice to see that side of his life, and how much these guys think of him.  It always shows me another dimension of this man I already think is the best guy in the world. 

We came home to our kids and Tay and her brother, it was about 11:30 when we got home.  They went downstairs, and my man took me to bed.  And we spent a little time showing each other that our biggest fan was the other.  🙂  And you know what?  My husband likes me.  He really likes me!  I’m probably one of the luckiest women ever.

Today, I have to take Tay and Princess to the store to find them matching shirts for the talent show next Friday.  Then they are going with Tay’s cousin to JoAnn Fabric to buy some fabric to sew on the shirts and their capris.  It’s going to be really cute, I think.  They are singing a duet — “Who Says You Can’t Go Home” by John Bon Jovi and Jennifer Nettles.  Princess is also going to sing “Over My Head (Cable Car)” by The Fray.  Tay is singing “Call Me When You’re Sober” by Evanescence.

Later today, if the weather stays nice, I will take my little one to the park.  I love my baby so much.  I can’t believe how fast the time is going and how she is growing.  I can’t believe that in less than a year and a half, my Princess will be in high school.  All the kids are getting so big–my 2, and all my other nieces and nephews.  Next thing you know, I’ll be blogging about college graduations, weddings, grandchildren.  I swear, it seems to be going that fast! 

I forgot to mention that when I was down visiting my Mom, my brother burned me like 10 CD’s of songs for my mp3 collection.  I’m rocking out with the Commodores, Lionel Richie solo, Beach Boys, Billy Joel, everything America or Bread every recorded, some good Eric Clapton tunes, a pretty decent crop of Conway Twitty, Cream, Crosby Stills Nash Young.  I got everything the Eagles have done (including The Greeks Don’t Want No Freaks!! a B Side Legend!).  And Oh!  Fleetwood Mac heaven. Genesis, Guns N Roses, Hank Williams Sr. and Jr., Queen, and Jeez, much more.  

AND I just downloaded a bunch of Robert Palmer off of iTunes…I miss him more than you could know.  He was amazing.  Total bad ass.  And sexy as hell. 

So I’m listening to my tunes, waiting for the kids to get up, and watching my stinky Lola.  Speaking of stinky, I gotta go address the situation with her.

Take care, ya’ll!


Currently listening :
By Robert Palmer
Release date: By 15 June, 1990