Hi everyone (that’s seriously every ONE because I think that’s how many are reading it LOL).
I had a GREAT weekend in Cincinnati with Kitty! We had a blast. There was time for long, therapeutic talks, and then we went to dinner and karaoke. I sang a couple of great songs that were received well by the crowd. I got hit on by two or three different guys which I found amusing. One of them sang a song to me. I kind of felt bad because I had to tell him I was married! Poor guy. I just looked pretty the other night. I’m not sure what I did different
OTHER THAN EXERCISE AND TAKE CARE OF MYSELF FOR THREE STRAIGHT WEEKS!!!
I am feeling pretty damned good. I have moments of hesitation and I just push them aside. I am sticking to something and seeing almost immediate fruits of my labors has made me feel so good about myself.
I am not losing weight with my 20 minute walks. I did some reading on it and I am finding that “walking for fitness” experts say for weight loss you should walk 45 to 60 minutes a day. I am DEFINITELY not up for that length of time right now and I’m not sure if I WANT to walk that long every day at one time. If I had a treadmill….we might find I feel differently.
Oh – a couple of different people read my aura this weekend — and universally they said I have a bluish/purple aura. I did some research about aura colors and this is what I found.
Blues are some of the most loving, nurturing and supportive personalities of the Life Colors. They live from their heart and emotions. Their purpose for being on the planet is to give love, to teach love and to learn that they are loved. Their priorities are love, relationships, and spirituality.
Blues are traditionally teachers, counselors, and nurses—basically the loving, nurturers and caretakers on the planet. Blues are constantly helping others. They want to make sure that everyone feels loved and accepted. People are always turning to Blues for comfort and counsel because Blues will always be there for them. They consistently provide a shoulder for others to cry on.
Blues are the most emotional personalities in the aura spectrum. They can cry at the drop of a hat. Blues cry when they are happy, hurt, angry, sad, or for no apparent reason at all. Even watching a sentimental commercial on television can bring on tears.
Violets are the inspirational visionaries, leaders and teachers who are here to help save the planet. Most Violets feel drawn to educate the masses, to inspire higher ideals, to improve the quality of life on the planet, or to help save people, animals and the environment.
All Violets have an inner sense that they are here to do something important, that their destiny is greater than that of the average person. Most Violets have felt this way since childhood. As children, many Violets imagined becoming famous, or traveling the planet, possibly joining humanitarian causes such the Peace Corp. Many of these charismatic personalities take on roles as leaders and teachers, while other Violets prefer to reach people through music, film or other art form.
Because this era is currently the “Violet Age,” any Violets who are not accomplishing what they came here to do are experiencing an inner “push” — even an inner “earthquake.” Inner forces seem to be shaking them up and pushing them to move into action, to fulfill their life purpose. Violets know they are here to do something significant. However, they aren’t always sure what that something is or how to accomplish it.
Many Violets were taught as children that their dreams and aspirations were unrealistic, so they have lost touch with their original visions. It’s important for Violets to reconnect with their life purpose and vision, and to take action. Otherwise they will always feel unfulfilled. They will always sense something is missing from their lives. Violets need to learn to slow down long enough to listen to their inner voice and to connect with their higher vision.
I have made a new commitment to myself and my family. I am limiting my time on the internet starting today. I am also limiting where I go during that limited time. I have determined that my time on Cafemom causes me more stress than a feeling of community with other mothers. I am considering dropping out of that site completely but I did make a couple of friends there I don’t know otherwise. What I *did* do in the interim was drop out of almost ALL of my groups, and especially any group that has topics that cause me anger, anxiety, stress or negative feelings. I moved that little message box with the most recent message board topics to the bottom of my page so I can’t see it if I come on to journal or read my messages. AND the new rule is, I can only go and check on Friday morning, no other days of the week. As far as MySpace goes, I am going to keep my account there because, again, that is how I have contact with a couple other people in my life that I like. I will check that everyday because generally it doesn’t stress me out to go there.
I am allowing myself 1 hour in the morning and a half hour in the evening. During that time I will get on sparkpeople and enter all my information and read health articles, etc., get support in my groups, etc. I will go to my Bipolar support website and talk to my friends there. I will check my email, read my d-land journals and write in my own journal. In the evening I will enter my meds and moods into my moodtracker.
My reason for this change is to focus more on my baby and my family, and do more productive things with my time. Last night, I colored two mandalas from a book I bought. It’s waxy paper that when you put the pictures up on the windows and the sun shines in, it looks like stained glass. It was fun and relaxing. I am also thinking of getting back into crocheting. AND Reading!!!
My plans also include more structured time with Lola. Getting outside to play, etc.
I wrote some of my friends to see if anyone wanted to have a card/board playing game night once a month. Once I get replies from a few people I’m going to set it up.
OK – I need to go and get going on the rest of my day. My internet time allowance is about done.
Today’s Inspirational Muse Provided by:
Come Dancing – The Kinks
Promises – Eric Clapton
I Heard a Rumor – Bananarama
Dance Hall Days – Wang Chung
Cool It Now – New Edition
Ladies Night – Atomic Kitten
No One In The World – Anita Baker