Thanks for the response, Y — and I got some feedback on one of my bipolar message boards. I know that this is actually a breakthrough–I think that I wanted to think maybe the bipolar diagnosis was wrong. That I didn’t need the meds. Actually these thought patterns are normal for a bipolar person. I found that I was wrong and I have to say that life was better with the lamictal than without. I have been getting back on lamictal for a few days, going back on it at half dose for a couple of weeks then I’ll go back to my full dose. I’m actually thinking after I level out for a while on it, I may ask my pdoc to up the dosage. I’m still way under the normal dosage.
I have been thinking all day about what could help me stay motivated and I’m thinking I really could use a life coach. I know they’re expensive but I need someone who is dedicated to keeping me aware of myself and kicking me in the heiny when needed. I know there are a lot of my friends online who are there to lend an ear, but I think I need to have someone that I’m accountable to (other than my hubby or other family member).
Our friend Catie has been doing this as most of us know — and she loves it — do you think it might help me?
I feel a little bit more acknowledged in the world so I appreciate my friends who have had something to say in the matter. I think it’s time to have a little “me” time…I’m sure that will help me feel better. Thanks again…