Current mood: horny
My first blog on here (my space). I haven’t really done anything with this My space account for a long time, but I was just fooling around the other day and found some of my old high school friends on here and got kind of excited about it. I am thinking of blogging here instead of my other diary site. Of course if I put my full name on here people can find it so maybe I shouldn’t write anything major on here. :0)
I just want to note that my husband is so damned sexy lately! I just look at him and I’m all “GRRRR”. Maybe it’s not him, its probably those 30’s hormones kicking in, I hear they’re pretty intense! Viva la 30’s!
You know, I’m trying to come to some sort of understanding with myself about my current figure. When I moved up here to Michigan, I weighed approximately 135. Pretty nice and curvy at that point. Now, after having Lola in 2005, I’m up to about 185. I am carrying it pretty good. I still have an hourglass figure, it’s just a bigger hourglass. It’s a two-hour glass. LOL. Basically the weight is distributed evenly, so I don’t SEEM too bulky when I look at myself. I have always had an appreciation for the BBW’s out there and I know that you can be beautiful no matter what size you are. I just need to do a few things to boost my self-esteem. I really don’t mind the number on the scale. I just want to confirm that I’m still sexy to others! I think I’m sexy, myself, but what about my hubby? I guess he must think so because he’s still as interested in me “that way” as he always has been, maybe even more so. I want to carry myself with confidence.
There is a big community of people who love big, beautiful women. I’d like to meet some in person so I can see that they are real! One of my new friends on here, I found on the BBW group, and I saw her picture and she is GORGEOUS! She knows she’s sexy and she is! That’s what I want to be like.
Right now, my bra size is up to 36FF, and everything else lines right up with it. It’s time for a change, a little pick-me-up of the old self esteem.