Wednesday, July 2. Say prayers. May not be able to update after that for at least a couple of weeks.
And on the bad side of things…
I went to the orthopedic doctor yesterday. I *do* have to get surgery on my arm to fix the problem in my hand. You guys have no idea how much this sucks.
They will make an approximately 8 inch incision from midway up my upper arm, down the elbow and midway down the lower arm. It will be on the inside of the arm and will not be visible unless I am holding my arm out or up. However, this is not a little incision, it’s a major cut so major scarring. What they will do in there is take the nerve off my elbow and move it up to the inside of my arm. I will not be able to use my arm for 6 weeks at least. I am very frightened and upset by the whole thing and there is a lot of emotional turmoil about being disfigured yet again. I already feel hideous enough.
Then you go into the implications of no left arm for a while. It will affect my NEW job. It will affect my ability to drive somewhat. It will affect my ability to care for my baby. I guess there are people with one arm that do it and don’t even have a problem so I will just have to buck up and deal. And I am fortunate enough to have Princess home for the summer to help me. I’m just really emotional and sad about this. However, surgery has to be done. As a matter of fact the doctor was very clear that if I wait even 6 months more damage could be done and full recovery of my hand could be jeopardized. Even doing it now I may not get 100% recovery.
I did it!
I got the job with SpeakWrite. I now have an actual real live work from home job.
Major wish fulfilled!!!!
You guys have a great weekend. I’m going to watch my best friend have one of her major wishes fulfilled - obtaining her Bachelor’s Degree!!! Magna Cum Laude, no less!!!
“I stumbled into town…just like a sacred cow…”
I don’t know why I titled this entry like that, except that I am listening to David Bowie and his lyrics give me such joy.
Well, the rain has stopped for a while, and the sun is out, big fluffy clouds floating overhead. I am in my lovely office…just thought I’d write ANOTHER update.
Today I had an EMG to diagnose my problem with my left hand. They did find a pinched nerve in my elbow; he classified it as “severe”. It is the cubital tunnel syndrome, so I will go back to the doctor and we will form a game plan. I hope that game plan does not involve immobilizing my left arm for any length of time. How will I be able to pick up Lola or do my typing?
I finished the last stage of the hiring process with SpeakWrite. I turned in my sample jobs and they will be looked over and I will be given an opportunity to fix any mistakes; then they will let me know if I am hired or not. Please, say a prayer that I get this job. It is exactly what I have been looking for in a job, for so long. It’s based at home, I don’t have to even put on a stitch of makeup, and I don’t have to deal with arrogant attorneys or even anyone face to face. I do my work then I sign off. It’s exactly what I want. No more taking my work home with me emotionally. Just type it and let it go.
I need to get my house cleaned up, laundry done and car cleaned out before we leave to go to Cincinnati on Friday. I will get started on that now. I just thought I’d let you know those little tidbits.
Book Recommendation
Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert.
You need to read this book. NEED TO.
I really need to get back into a writing groove.
I am sitting here, trying to 1) figure out what of the million things on my mind I should write about; and 2) trying to understand why just logging onto this blog is causing me to feel the anxiety again. Seriously. My whole body starts to ache and I’ve got that “first hill of the roller coaster” feeling, just crazy! What is up with that?
Even writing scares me right now. I am afraid to record my thoughts? I have no idea what the problem is but I am really having a hard time sharing right now.
Hold on, I am sick to my tummy - gotta run to the little girl’s room. (sorry, TMI)
Well, I am back, and I have decided now is not the time to write. I wish I could, I really wish I could. But now is not the time.
Today…
Good things about today:
1. Hubby & I have been a couple for 9 years today. I love that guy.
2. Lola went all day yesterday without her binky. Only minor crying bits.
3. Lola slept much better last night than she did the night before. Only woke up a couple of times, cried a little bit and went back to sleep. Binky removal is going better than anticipated.
4. Princess was nominated to attend the Kiwanis Key Leader conference locally. Kiwanis is paying her tuition in full, and she is the only student at her school who was selected.
5. Lola is at preschool, and I’m home alone.
6. Lola went #2 in the potty yesterday for the first time. I know you all don’t care about that but it is a milestone, nonetheless. Pottytraining may be easier than anticipated, as well.
Neutral things about today:
1. It’s 12:30 p.m., and there is still time to get some stuff done today.
Bad things about today:
1. I have so many things to do that I am not going to reasonably be able to get them done.
2. I have to pay the bills. I am scared.
3. I have to take a shower, and fix my hair, but I have no hair dryer or straightening iron because my daughter (the older one) messed them up while we were on vacation. I need to go get a new set.
4. I am unmotivated to do anything.
5. I am addicted to this computer and the internet.
Well, it’s obvious that the first thing I need to do is just finish this blog and go on about my business. Shower first, I think. Then we’ll go from there.
Take care, everyone!
CG
Love and Good Energy
I will be coming back later to talk about these things some more, but anyway — I may be manic right now, but I have a feeling of goodwill and love today towards everyone and I feel like things are actually possible in my life. I am going to try to keep this momentum. I’m ready to kick ass and take names in several areas of my life.
You will hear more when I have created my game plan.
CG
